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Friday, May 7th, 2004

Time:11:54 pm.

I do not know how many people will really care but I have a new journal usesnumbers add it if you wish.


as ever,




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Thursday, May 15th, 2003

Subject:Fond Farwell
Time:1:50 pm.
Mood: content.
Yeah this is my last post..... It's been about a year, but i dont have time for a live journal and i have my pen and paper. Also it doesnt fit my fanct writing about most of my impersonal issues for someone to read, i dont enjoy it, so i doubt you do.

After midnight tonight. Done.

The line which is being said right now which i feel is great is.

"help me kill my time, 'cause ill never be fine."
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Saturday, May 10th, 2003

Subject:fond farewell
Time:1:36 am.
may 15th , so long journal and most online traces..... oddly i am content...
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Friday, March 28th, 2003

Subject:after the street has been swept ill be the only shit left
Time:12:25 am.
so i withdrew.... im breaking apart i think.

new job hurriah... full time..

need to find new apt...

need to save up to move.

still no car...

happy now?
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Saturday, March 8th, 2003

Time:12:58 am.
sometimes i wander why i try.
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Monday, February 17th, 2003

Time:1:39 pm.
Mood: accomplished.
Yeah look everyone a new user icon, gaze in awe. It is a cut up surrealist self portrait. umm yep... guess whos trying to get fired from his job, its me thats right. im not going into work today so the evening should be intresting i hope.
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Friday, February 7th, 2003

Subject:The weather out side is........... ?
Time:8:20 am.
Mood: weird.
I am making this update because it would appear that my eight o'clock was canceled, and i dont exactly know why it was. I did have to brave the rather crappy elements, cold and snow, to make it there to just sign my self to say i went to class. I didnt mind coming just to sign in because i dont need to not be in that class anymore than i have, which is three times this semester so far, and hopefully no more than that.

Today would seem to be a semi slow day ahead of me after class, but i am looking forward to it none the less. After my Mus 142 course i am going to go pick up patrick and hang out with him, but i am not exactly for certain what we will be doing. I have been wanting and intending to hang out with him and actually have a decent conversation like we once had , but we have now became busy people and also have things which distract us. Some time between here and there after class i am going to pick up some tax forms, since i have already recieved all my w2's all five of them. I know having five w2's for one year is rather sad but i suppose that is how things needed and had to work out. I am going to e file my federal taxes, and i dont think that you can e file on the state level so i am just going to have to do it the pen and paper way, good times. After i hang out with patrick i am going to look forward to a relaxing or atleast i am planning on a relaxing evening back at my dwellings, in which i will probally call a few people, see if i have gotten carlys(muh pen pal you rock) letter in the mail, do some reading and also attempt to write something decent, and then be early to bed. The reasoning behind the early to bed on a friday night is , because i didnt sleep last night and not much the night before and i have to wake up at around sevenish tomorrow morning so i can be at work at eight. After that i am going to drive to charleston, to have a picnic with a new friend and be happy and warm hopefully, and i dont want to forget the tea and coffee. That is something that i am looking forward to.

Well i should begin studying for the exam i have coming up here in about thirty minutes or so in my communications course, i hope that it wont be too difficult, and wish me luck. Other than that unless something eventful happens during today, i wont be making another post today(cries through out the world being heard)(joking) but i will probally reply back to comments i have recieved recently and also make a post in a couple of the communities i belong to.

p.s. does anyone know where the bell music in the mornings at marshall come from, and also when is my scooter weather going to come? I wanna ride because east siders ride till we die , or something like that.
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Thursday, February 6th, 2003

Subject:the survey doesnt lie
Time:12:59 pm.
congrats! you are the worst fucking indie fuck that
can ever fucking exist. you are not only better
then everyone but arent afraid to show it. your
taste is perfection and you are loved.

what type of indie fuck are you?
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yeah i took this and it is true too bad i dont claim indie, dont openly claim anything but if i did i am 80's new wave mod representing, be moody till you die !
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Monday, February 3rd, 2003

Time:1:16 pm.
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Monday, January 27th, 2003

Time:9:59 am.
Today i attempted to be ontime for my eight o'clock, wasnt on time, naturally. I did leave with ample time to get there but thanks to some non agressive drivers who are afraid to turn across traffic i was about eight minutes late because i sat at a red light four times through. I wasnt horrible late like i normally am, the attendence sheet had just missed me so i still had to sign it after class, i think it is slowly going to become a ritual though i dont want it to be.

The weather is horrid as usual but supposedly tomorrow it is going to be forty degrees. OH MY! Forty degree weather isnt my idea of what i would like it to be but i suppose i dont have any choice. So possibly i will be able to become warm for maybe ten mintues since i have been back.

I am still unemployed. Would like to have a job, but i dunno.

Tonight i am going to attempt to goto sleep early. I will maybe take a nap if i am tired when i get home then wake up. Do some homework. Take something to make me goto sleep and conk out, because i highly doubt there will be anything i will need to be doing today.

For some odd reason i have the jitters and the shakes. Even my jaw is shaking. I think my nerves are getting terribly bad, and i am extremely stressed out. It isnt over one thing that is earth rattling, but a lot of smaller things that destroy small towns and villages instead. I guess the small things add up quicker than one would think they would. Right now i wish i was just semi stable physical heath wise, because things are just beginning to scare me a little with how often i feel bad. I guess ill keep going to doctors but i think they can only blame low blood pressure , anemia, and cold weather for so long. I just want to feel good.

I would really like to do something exciting, or atleast something that i dunno , makes me feel like i am not a machine. The cycle that i seem to follow, just tends to make me feel soo mechincal and lifeless, i couldnt begin to describe it. I think i wouldnt feel this way if i always did do the same thing. Or always saw the same people, or just didnt always do the same thing. It is so lame. Where is this excitement which is supposed to fill me with the passion to take on the world? Where is this catalyst that is to fuel me when i have nothing left? Where exactly am i going?

i know you dont have the answers.
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Friday, January 24th, 2003

Subject:Emo, Sir? No, Thank you!
Time:12:16 pm.
Mood: annoyed.
The statements i am going to make in this entry may come across as, condecending, self-righteous, egotist, cynical, hypocritial, and also many other nice adjectives. By no means do i feel i am any better, or mean any harm to anyone in this. Just saying, "EMO IS NOT FOR ME!!!"

I noticed today how annoyed i am to just see "emo kids". I just feel it is becoming such another lame ass fashion. I feel it is so easy to put on some chuck taylors, not match, buy some old fooggy t-shirt, put a massive assortment of bands on an atricle of clothing or an accessory and be some sort of fucking fashion solider.

I recall once upon a time you could have branded me with some of these similarites or something of the sort or something, but not really anymore, or atleast i hope not. I no longer to my knowledge own any of these things, and to me were a symbol of me being naive, and almost at times wanting some sort of a uniform in which i could fit into a sub-culture group in the area in which i dwell, but sorry i grew up i guess and now dress a little bit more sensibly and a little more fashion wise, i would think. Also my blue chucks which i own for some time are now hanging on a telephone poll in Texas outside of someone house whom is very close to me and never really got to see me as this person or in that mask or costume but saw me completely bury that being.

It has come to my attention that "emo stylings" are just such a dime a dozens along with their bearers of the label. I am just tired of seeing it on television and all over the streets and them coming across as so self righteous and like it is something that is such a part of the underground sub culture. Seems like it is like punk in the Uk in the 70's and early 80's , just some nice fashion with no movement and no even too much about the music or dont exactly have much to stand for at all. Also it just seems to me they dont for the most part have very much fashion sense at all in the idea, of looking as bad as possible by not matching, having unkepmt hair, just being slobby in my opinion. Im sorry i just dont think this is too becoming nor how i would like to represent my self in a public image, im sorry folks. Maybe i am just becoming old or just being some sort of a "poser" or fashion police or something i dont know. I just dont think i understand anymore. I do shop at goodwill for some clothing, but i dont try to find the most ridicoulous thing possible. Excuse me for being practicle, i think i have just grown up. Also i dont like the idea you can just put on some clothing readily available about anywhere, and there you go folks your accepted by most people. This for me , no thank you, not anymore. Not even soo much ever.

So call me a prune, a lameass, a grumpy ass mod or what the fuck ever. I ment no harm by my oberservations.
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Monday, January 20th, 2003

Subject:i will always say im sorry, though i have done nothing wrong
Time:6:49 pm.
Mood: cold.
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Friday, January 17th, 2003

Subject:a hole in the middle that cant be filled
Time:5:14 am.
this is another journal from me. friends only though after this post. so comment and i will add you.
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